Mine was the gradual path. I had no idea of the destination, I just wanted freedom from my own suffering. That inner freedom came and went. I have never been goal oriented so that was never a preoccupation. But I did notice that when I returned to suffering, triggered by some external event that activated an inner belief or reaction, the suffering was greater. The less of it there was, the more intensely I felt it!
Kavi, thank you. I too seem to feel the suffering more intensely now, especially the very unnecessary suffering over fairly minor circumstances. I recently had a situation with my home that I didn’t like, I let myself get pulled into the suffering, and man, I felt horrible for a couple of days. Horrible enough to realize that I just can’t go there anymore. Yes, suffering can be a great teacher, as can kind people like you who share their story and experience. 🙏🏻❤️
Kavi, thank you. I too seem to feel the suffering more intensely now, especially the very unnecessary suffering over fairly minor circumstances. I recently had a situation with my home that I didn’t like, I let myself get pulled into the suffering, and man, I felt horrible for a couple of days. Horrible enough to realize that I just can’t go there anymore. Yes, suffering can be a great teacher, as can kind people like you who share their story and experience. 🙏🏻❤️