THE LOVE OF LIFETIMES

It is our wedding anniversary. (For those who don’t know, I mean Amoda Maa and myself) We have been together for over 20 years and married since 2011 (on June 21st) - A timeless dance through eternity celebrating an exquisite joy with each other.

This love has no depth and no height, it is vast and ever replenishing, a spring that keeps bubbling up from the ground of existence.

It is hard to even speak of this love now. When I try my words fall short. And in our reminiscence yesterday we were staggered by how much we have changed and what we were like back in ‘our old life,’ in England. I think the greatest change has been in me. I was, without being too negative about myself, really quite lost and afraid of life. I was still carrying the vestiges of old patterns and even tendencies towards addictive ways (though my days of alcohol were long gone).

And now we are here, deeply immersed in the teaching, living in Santa Fe, New Mexico, with a non profit organization, a gorgeous little pup and a beautiful community of seekers and finders we serve and who inspire us.

The point I am trying to make is that transformation is not always found on the easy path, it may be uncomfortable and challenging, but life is mysterious and the patterns of our lives may be different than we imagine, and when we open up to the possibilities all sorts of things may happen.

I am grateful for it all. It is all grace.

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There is grace in the broken
Light in the darkness
And union in the separation.

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The heart must become 
Empty of its grievances
And let go of its defenses
For love to truly flow.

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Both heart and mind
Liberated from their
Contractions
Merge with the totality
For there is nothing separate
Except mind's erroneous belief
And heart's protective walls.

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It is preferable
To live with an open heart
That lets everything in
Bearing the unbearable
Than to try and keep it all out

It’s like the relief of surrender
As the parched earth
Cries yes when it feels the first drops of rain.

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Divine intelligence
Experiencing form and life
Through each individuation.

An exquisite pattern flowing
Through eternity
What sublime beauty.

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You want to know
Your eternal nature?
Dive into the now
Empty and naked
Free of imagination
Be utterly still
Without force
Or expectation

A doorway opens
Into the vast
And although you sense it
There is no one there to sense it

Ah, that is the mystery.

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I searched within
For a reason to do anything,
After sifting through the many veils
I discovered only love.

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Declutter your inner temple
Clean up your outer temple
It is the fastest way 
To clean up karma
And become empty
Ready for divine intelligence.

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To be humbled is a beautiful thing
Many people could do with it
The ego self falls from its perch
And just for a moment loses its footing
A doorway opens to a deeper reality
Most scramble back
And slam the door shut
Yet there is often one who
Steps through into that new world.

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When you step back and look
From a great distance
All you see is a beautiful tapestry
Being woven across time
All things that rise and fall
Are sewn upon it
And the Eternal One
Is all of it.

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