CLOSER TO GOD THAN WE THINK
I remember my own journey. I resisted, fought, denied, railed, resigned, explained and pretended. I came very undone, to the point of major illness (the result of extreme lifestyle choices and addiction). To this day I still cannot quite believe what happened and what I imagined I was doing all those years (over 25)! Talk about the feeling of wasting time…
So I had very much to let go of and forgive and unravel. That’s why I am unafraid of, and deeply respect, the human condition and the human journey of seeking freedom.
By and by I did arrive at the most profound acceptance of the perfection and beauty of it all. That acceptance doesn’t mean it doesn’t hurt sometimes. It means that in this soft presence everything is allowed to be as it is, and as it was. Everything else is suffering. There is no going back, but there is here and now.
Here are some poems for you. Thank you for reading my work.
A celebration Of the divine beauty Of the soul Of each individuation. We are closer to God than we think. ---------------------- Today, let me love The depth and beauty Of the ocean And let me also love The waves that rise from it Have their moment of glory And fall effortlessly back Dissolving into the vast There is no separation. --------------------- You cannot know another Until you know yourself And to know yourself You must fall in love with silence And discover your aloneness Even in the midst of life. ---------------------- First become love Then sing of it As a bird sings Its morning glory. ---------------------- You may ask Where did the time go? But time is just a river Unstoppable and always moving Time flows into the eternal ocean As does the river Friend, for a moment Sit here and watch it pouring by In truth it looks beautiful. ----------------------- THE WAVES THAT DANCE THROUGH ETERNITY. You will not find me in any thing You may call me by this name But it will not be me All these descriptions Of what I do and how I look Are not the truth They are the waves that dance For I am the Nameless One Dancing through eternity Taking form and shedding it I am what animates all things Inside the inside The mysterious intelligence That informs all that appears You cannot name me For I am not that But you can know me directly By sitting utterly still On a starlit night And breathing the universe In and out In through your chest And out through your breath Sweet movement of eternal ocean. ---------------------- Whatever is inside you That you turn away from In fear, shame, disgust, Or unworthiness You must meet They are sacred guests And need a seat at the table Let them eat the love you offer them Lest they starve And eat you. --------------------- There is a pattern woven Within the very fabric Of your life But you cannot see it or serve it Unless you fall inside And surrender. -------------------- If you spend your whole life Fighting the waves of phenomena Learning to swim Struggling to keep afloat You will never know The exquisite depths Of the ocean. You must drown first To truly live. --------------------- If fate wants you naked and raw Stripped of defenses and illusions Go with it There is grace in there.